Question in itself

Oh and I do wonder, who still reads this blog? I do hope it brings some form of entertainment. Not those sexual kind nor provocative (at least in the sexual way) (and no, I'm not feeling horny). Just a question.

John Ji

LIFE

Its ironic, and almost funny when you think about how precious life is. Through life's countless mistakes and forgivings till you then only realize that life is indeed precious. Treasure every moment as if it were your last, treasure every single breath you draw in as though you were fighting for the very essence of life itself. Only then, that I sincerely believe, that you have truly lived. Or so I'd like to think.

In a person's life, some kind of mistakes can only be made once. Because as most would put, "point of no return". A phrase like that doesn't come from nothingness right? I made mistakes after mistakes, big ones, small ones, family ones, friendships, work, the list goes on etc. But still I am here, drawing breath and treasuring every moment.

That is why I am atoning, for what I have done. And to simply treasure every single moment I have with you, every breath of you, every single one of it. I do hope that one day, I'm given a second chance, and I pray, I really do, that I would be given one. For the very fact that I dare tell you, I'm changed. No longer who and how I used to be. I just hope this phase will come to an end and pass, so things can move on, I can move on, and definitely you too can move on. This isn't me running away, I've nowhere to run, I can only overcome.

So many plans, so many aspirations, so many dreams... I do hope to one day fulfil them, all and every one of them. I do hope also and pray still, that I'd be given this chance. Because in this world that I believe in, second chances don't come easy. They're almost non-existent. But I firmly pray and believe.

Faith moves mountains. Faith. I have that.

Hence this is me, signing off as a person, someone normal, someone not pretentious, someone true, me.

John Ji

A brand new me.

how does one move on after such a big blow? im still learning and trying.

a little more patience, that is all im asking from you.

my final cry, do you hear me?

HAPPY HAPPY 21st Birthday to you!

Before anything else, I'd like to wish my girlfriend a Happy Happy Happy 21st Birthday! You are now legal to watch R21 shows, enter majority of the clubs, attend the upcoming IR rooms, and of course, to get married! With me of course, but not yet =P

Also, I'd like to give a shoutout to everyone who came for the party! The foods were too much though, and the booze too! It is unfortunate that in the end, the Absinthe was untouched. Well, there's always next time ;)

Important people to give thanks to;

Jun Xiang and his girlfriend, Lays, for staying over since Thurs night and helping out with the decorations of the party favors and also especially my bro, for starting the BBQ fire. Without him, there won't be a grill.

John Young and May Yin, for the help in everything!

Kok How and Graydon who helped clearing up after the BBQ

And lastly, my camp mates, who came, partied, and got HIGH. I hope you guys really did enjoy the night! Rockband 2 was the shnitz wasn't it? Haha Kudos to the expert drummer Cheng Liang who taught me a thing or two about real drumming. Chai for offering his help to clear up. Basically everyone!

So I MUST SAY THIS ONCE MORE, thank you all for coming and making this event a successful one! My girlfriend and her friends enjoyed thoroughly!

P.s. Ariel (my goddaughter) is such a cutie, isn't she?

P.p.s. BOOZE PARTY SOON (Absinthe included)

Snoozing off,
John Ji